CGN’s New Groove

Saturday morning, as usual, I was running the first hill on the Freestyle loop. Then, something amazing happened. My legs started to feel tired before my lungs crapped out and asthma set in! On the second lap, I focused on my step cadence and breathing. I pumped my arms. I pumped my legs. And still, my lungs outlasted my legs! I really feel like I’ve finally hit my groove this week with conditioning. My short distances are feeling good, and I got a lifetime PR on the treadmill of 27:00 for the 3-mile. I’ve been greasing the groove at home…
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Beyond the Mat Lesson #5: It’s Never a Waste

“If you learn from it, nothing is wasted.” I really liked this lesson’s focus on trying new things with the mindset that there will be some positive takeaway from the experience. I wish I had been in that mindset during my first degree test regarding the beach workout. Maybe Mercury was in retrograde or something, but I let my anxiety take over and didn’t enjoy it as much as I should have. This year I know better! If I feel a funk coming on I think I’ll find a good Headspace meditation series to do a few days ahead of…
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Beyond the Mat Lesson #4: Silver Linings

“It’s all about the process” Wow. This Beyond the Mat lesson is downright anxiety-inducing in my current state of mind, with its focus on “What if I fail?” I don’t want to fail. I finished my checklist (just in the nick of time), but there are so many milestones ahead between today and the end of the test. The conditioning benchmarks start in a few weeks; the running trials are in almost exactly a month. I’m not where I wanted to be and envisioned myself at this point in the test. Will I meet the baselines? …I’m giving that a…
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Beyond the Mat Lesson #3: Keeping Your Goals In Sight

This week’s lesson was all about maintaining your focus despite inevitable setbacks. The irony is that this week’s lesson was actually the lesson for several weeks ago, and because of aforementioned setbacks, I’m sitting in a corner of the mat between classes typing my first draft of this entry on my cell phone trying to catch up. (Note: I didn’t revise this for yet another week — and so my journal entry to-dos continue to pile up, haha.) I’ve generally been able to recommit to my goals every week by putting together my bullet journal spread for the week on…
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Zoiks! She’s a Master of Disguise

Sometimes I feel like a Scooby Doo villain. At some critical point during this black belt test, my talented fellow testers will unmask this personae of “CGN Elaine” to reveal the sinister, lazy, asthmatic two-timer trying to pass herself off as a black belt and martial artist. What is imposter syndrome? How do you cope with self loathing? And who has been terrorizing the town dressed as a space ghost all this time?

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